Saturday, September 26, 2020

Time (in the style of e.e.cummings)

Another poetry prompt from my group. I love e.e.cummings.
in the hours 
(around 1)
between plenty 
& time's up! 

if I do 
no thing
am i 

waste 
(full)?!
times' some 
kinda thing

4 certain 

passin' 
bye 
unease 
gets comfort, 
able

cross-legged 

my gut 
chews

that

Monday, April 13, 2020

A Poem from Page 99


This is a poem from page 99 of a book of my choice, third paragraph, made up of the words I decided to keep, then rearranged into a poem. Poetry prompt exercises are often strangely enlightening. 

recall a slam
to the chest

an immediate hook 
all their coffee 
mornings distant 
belong to another 

he didn’t know 
had no idea
safely up there 
on his stroll

their invisible
wire just a story
a projection

she’s fallen 
like a memory
if she was 
there at all

did (s)he 
make it all up

fate 
always 
a maybe 

Monday, April 06, 2020

Swim Away

beliefs fail 
in shallow 
waters

a lifetime's 
swim 
upstream 
put to end

the passivity 
of false 
accusations 

worn, I
exit at the  
confluence

to no one's 
notice 

promised 
waters 
non-existent

reborn 
an estuary 
away 

Sunday, April 05, 2020

Predators

from the dark yard
our dog barked
with deep warning
an early spring evening
the forest behind us
less sparse with
every sunlit day
we watched as he ran the rear fence
left to right, back again
his instinctual memory
entire being responding
to their unwelcome presence
the coyote's three-pronged
threat grew less cautious
I heard confidence in
the faint rustling of strategy
their reliance on other
adapting to overtake
shared goal to survive 
awe, curiosity transitioned to fear
bravado would never be enough
to overcome these predators
impersonal in their purpose
we called to him, flooded the yard
with light and our noises
mindful of a force beyond ours
howling cries and yips pierced sleep
from woods beyond ours
their persistent pursuit audible 
the coyotes kin to this virus
just another impersonal predator
unwelcome genetic saboteur 
both strands parallel
the human code;
our strategies align 
our instinctual memory
to rely on, adapt
overtake, survive
is to move from
prey to predator 
again

Sunday, December 01, 2019

The Hours


at 1:32 am what I've
not made room for
arrives like a rip tide

insistent, deeper
than the hours moving
as slowly as a world
I can't feel turn

things said and not heard
carry on conversations
I'm only here to witness

in the stillness
my heart grows irregular
beats in time with
an unresolved chaos

lost in the circular,
hopeless drag of analysis,
dawn creeps towards me

I drift off to dream
of letting go, of making room
for nothing to be done

Monday, May 27, 2019

Role with It

hero enables
histrionics 

jester juggles  
folks' lore 

the lost two 
turn their backs

cyclical origins 
of organic  
dysfunction

Saturday, May 25, 2019

No Consent

As a preface, I was thinking about doing an art piece of some type with this poem and cutting it into little slips of paper with separate "years" that women could take with them for things they identify with, remember or suffer for. One day I might; for now, it's obscure here on my blog.

NO CONSENT

9
we rode bikes on trails
in the park near the pool
as if they were horses;
our wild freedom
interrupted by an unforgettable man 
"We used to ride here, too"
we paid polite attention

"Girls, watch for people, 
I have to do something" 

disappearing into bushes, 
he walked back onto the path
pale and pant-less,
as if they wanted to see it

10
the two-piece strap slipped
from her shoulder
her body's betrayal
made her regret wearing it

their half-closed eyes smirked
smiles mouthed 
"Hey girl, come over here"
the teeth flashed a warning

her feet backed out
to the safety of any distance
is a good distance

sand and mud slick
with the slime of decay

12
three stood in a triangle formation
blocked her with the confidence
of a well-studied play 
diagrammed x's and arrows

"How much do you charge?"
asked the blue-eyed-blond
future girls' nightmare

her threat to tell enough
to make them stop

she'd never been kissed

13
the nervous neighbor,
father of three,
sweat a line of lust
above a drooling smile
"You're getting so tan"

on the path from the pool
she evaded invisible hands

her father ignored the obvious

15
two months of first love
when her family
planned to move

he thought she
should touch him 
because of that

because she
was leaving

17
her round-shouldered
neighbor didn't date
some random weekend
she agreed to a movie

his braces gleamed in
the cave of his
mother's front seat
aggressive hands
revealed who he was

she regretted 
ever being nice

18
she parked haphazardly
in the dark field of cars
at someone's house party
she lost her keys

they'd only ever said 
hello in hallways 
he said he'd help 
her find them

Van Halen filled the air
and Jamie was crying 
when he pushed her
to the ground

one beer, anger, and adrenaline
enough to throw him from her

her crab walk backward
found keys, an ancient instinct
placed each between her fingers

surprised/hurt/incredulous
he said he'd always liked her

18
At the floor party
she followed his
quick wit, impressive
vocabulary

"Brains and Boobs!" 
he shouted, as if
she should be proud
of both equally

19
Some Saturday night,
in the dorm, she
declined an offer
to go to his room

in the hallway of people
he yelled her ass was 
the fattest he'd ever seen

20
It snowed,
they celebrated
with strangers

her friend left; 
he offered a ride 

In the morning 
she pretended
nothing happened

she didn't look back

21
It was Friday
they celebrated 
with strangers

her friend left; 
he offered a ride

He said he couldn't 
drive, could he stay? 

She offered a 
downstairs couch

Before the roofie
took her down 
she caught a glimpse
as he crept in

fingers to lips, 
his lime green 
striped tube socks
and little-boy white briefs 
glowed in the dark 
flashed a neon warning

from her locked bathroom 
the morning after, 
she told him to leave 

He called her office later 
surprised/hurt/incredulous
that she wouldn't see him

Forgetting was harder 

Four weeks later, 
she had to remember
forced into a choice

forced, again

23
She had a single room
at the company party

at 3 am, her door opened
the second key to her room 
a gift the sales manager 
offered his young client, 
dad to a newborn

he had nowhere to go
"We can just talk..." 

her gut translated;
took her and everything 
to the bathroom 

snores meant safety 
she fled to the 
empty hotel lobby 

She didn't 
make waves 

34
The technician came 
to fix the basement drain 

A congenial conversation
grew strange, she said
she'd wait upstairs and 
fled the basement 

Relieved when he finished, 
she signed the receipt

Hated being nice 

44
It was hard to forget; 
she worked on forgetting 

50
It took hard work to forget

57
Me, too

58  
said no;
even when 
I didn't 

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Inheritance

too young
for fables

the innocent
sees truth

words
are not
necessary
to know

a child-self
envisions
powers
big enough
to slay away

whispers
wishes in
fevered,
fearful dreams

time tears
at the cloak
of love

no place
is safe;
longing arms
suffocate,
unfulfilled

the truth of it,
a lifelong tag;
scratches
at her neck

Friday, November 16, 2018

Spit it Out

Spit it Out

we don't walk
on eggshells;
we eat them

our ingested truths
broken inside of us

jagged, unattended;
they fester in folds
buried, ignored

all that negligence
nourishment for
the eventual
rampant, piercing
infection of a being
that refuses
to forget or accept

surfacing more excruciating
than the swallowing

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

New Beauty

she feasts on air, insatiably hungry
for bony hips and nipples without breasts

she eats herself smaller, enemy flesh falls away
her sinewed arms hang like claws

this is not how she sees herself
her body forgets it is female

Missing Persons

the discarded wander
layered in remnants
things we cast off

shrugged from our shoulders
like ragged sweaters
full of holes and torn elbows

like all things treasured
they arrived gift-wrapped
in the film of afterbirth

slipping into the world
through the same tunnel
souls cast into a shell
foreign, cold with longing

most were happy
they'd arrived
shared the intimacy
of family whole or fractured

today he is the only one
able to contact Major Tom
his visible hand holds
a cloaked transmitter
the blue napkin in his
nostril blocks our interference

she praises nicotine
too made up for daylight
her nails betray
the street beneath them
her sweet voice sings a
wish that her daughter,
that bitch, would die

they sit like filled trash bags
poised to go out
felled by chemicals
a hunger that holds
them in between here
and no where
how do they go missing?

all good intentions
spent on other beings

Tuesday, December 01, 2015

If only, if only

it's always been
a serious assignment,
self-inflicted

one of analyzing,
the loose pieces
thrown, scattered;
the puzzle of us

mistaken shapes
that seemed to fit
then didn't

others so quickly
perfect, like
a promise we might
still solve things

unable to see
what was right
in front of us,
words might have
saved us all

empathy sits
at another table,
begs to be asked;
patient, true

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Equations

memorization always fails me;
the idothisudothat equations
solve themselves while
I stand on sidelines
doubting the obvious

despair shows up
uninvited, to squander
foolish hope that we
might arrive at
different answers

lost in our mathematics,
any epiphany I ever had,
how we x and y and z
remain an abstract
I can't get a grip on

we speak in tongues;
your words float in my mind
like figures in a times table

I respond with my best guess,
waving from another corner
fingers crossed behind my back